Feeling Lonely?

I have survived for up to a year at a time without feeling lonely. Then a moment comes where I'm in the same room with someone that has adorable behaviors and a shining personality...

It all comes at once, and I can suddenly feel that I've been lonely for a very long time.

One goes home in a classical style that matches movies. It's dark, cold, and raining. I want to forget that I'm lonley, but I can't. I also want to do something about it.... but...

Those amazing people aren't interested or were already taken, because they're amazing.
And then the whole game of meeting people with any intent at all, whether that intent be lust or true love... that's heavy and screws it up anyway, and I don't want to play that game.

Meeting people, impressing them, spending ridiculous amounts of time and money, or sending 1,000 emails in a single night because women on classifieds sites have a 1 to 1.5% response rate... It's all demeaning. I don't want to lower myself to crap like that. I'll stay single.

If I can keep myself busy, then in a few days I won't remember that I'm lonely, and maybe that crushing weight will disappear for another year at a time. In some ways, I don't like being around nice people. They remind me that I'm lonely, and that's kinda painful.